When I grow up...

 I want to be strong. I want to be brave. I want to be honest. I want to be dependable. I want to be a great listener. I want to be a good friend. I want to be an amazing significant other. I want to heel. I want to love. and I want to encourage.  But what do I want to be when I grow up?

This question has been haunting my mind lately.  Where do I go? What career should I choose? Or do I choose a career?  Do I need to go back to school? Should I start job hunting again? Ugh.

I don't know yet what I want to be when I grow up, and it can be so frustrating.  I see so many people settling down with great jobs or moving forward in their education to pursue their dream job, all the while I remain sitting still.  I want a dream job.  I want to be chasing after that dream job.  But I don't even know what the dream job is... is this normal?

I REALLY want to go into massage therapy, but everyone tells me its too expensive, its hard on your hands, and it ends up being a short term career because of the wear and tear on your hands. Massage therapy sounds so perfect.  I could help others relax.  I could help others heal.  That would be the biggest blessing of all.  But how can I do it? And is it right? Where will I get the money for school? And will it only last short term?  And if it does only last short term... then what?!!?

Oh my goodness... this stresses me out! Where are my yoga breaths when I need 'em!