Lemons.

Everyone knows the saying "when life gives you lemons... <<insert positive or sarcastic lemon combination here>>" . 

Well, lately I have felt like my life has been an orchard of lemons. It seems that as soon as I find peace in one area, there is another area of life, that needs tending to.   Last night I went to bed with all the "lemons" playing in my head over and over, leaving me with sour thoughts and a chaotic mind.

This morning I woke up and I knew I needed to do something with the lemons in my life.


This is what I came up with:

LEMON:	SWEETENER:
Out of Shape.	Commit to Hot Yoga – This will help force me to rest my mind and focus on my body for an hour and half each night.
Past Mistakes.	Let go – If I am constantly feeling bad and worried about this things of the past, I cannot possibly enjoy today, nor can I work on regaining trust, and becoming a better person when I am always putting myself down for mistakes I have made.  I have to know that I was young and confused.  Now I am older and wiser, and a good person at heart.  The past is dead, Today is new and alive. Time to start acting like it.
Without A Home.	Start looking for new job – I have been struggling with feeling alone for a long time. I have learned that I am a social creature that thrives off of relationships.  Realizing this city is not home, means I need to start looking for a new job in a place that I can actually call home.
Fear of Disappointment.	Focus on self – I have a hard time with this one.  I do a lot of what I do because I never want to be selfish.  I tend to over analyze other peoples thoughts and judgments and then set expectations for myself that are not even my own expectations.  I need to turn off all sources of advice and opinion, and start listening to my own wants and desires.
Junk Overload.	Cleanse – I have too much ‘stuff’.  I have too many things I don’t need that are crowding me. Each day this week I will get rid of something whether I sell it or dispose of it, so that I can slowly work on cleansing my life of the junk.
Big Wallet, Small bills.	Free fun – In order to avoid stupid spending, I am going to start leaving my wallet at home.  When I go out and visit friends it’s easy to want to go grab a bite to eat, or a drink.  The problem is… it’s not so easy when I look at my bank statement and know I still have rent to pay.

All these things will be a challenge for me, but I need to start embracing the lemons and adding a good ole 'Ang style' sweetener to the situation.

 We all have our down falls and flaws,

we must just find the tools

 to push through them and grow.