Helpless.

Helpless. Every felt it?  It's the most indescribable, irritating, and empty feeling.  You want to do something, anything, to help.  You want to offer what ever you can in hopes of improving the problem at hand; but yet, no matter what you do, or have to offer, it doesn't seem to be enough. Helpless.  It's a feeling that I am learning.  It's a feeling that steals your smile, your motivation, and can create a complete break down.  Helpless.  Ugh... it's a word that gives me the chills.

Everyone feels helpless at some point in their life.  We have all faced challenges that we never thought we could get through. Yet,  when there seems to be no end to the suffering, we find a way to make a recovery; and whether slow or quick, we recover none the less. I know this; yet I sit here feeling like the hard times will never end. Feeling helpless...
  
So how do we get away from the helpless feeling? How do we stand up, when we feel so broken?

I have put in a lot of energy, spent many nights up thinking, and found myself on my knees praying more often than I am standing on my own two feet.  I've never been one to give up.  I never will be one to give up; and I believe that is key to getting through the helpless, lonely, hard times.

The saying goes "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going."  I think its time I start going.  Time I stop analyzing and thinking about how helpless and imperfect I may be.  Time I start working. Time I pray harder. Time I stand tall.  Things can only get better and I can only continue to work through the hard times. Helpless.  Its a false thought. It's a mind trick. Don't believe it.  Things will get better.