Can't understand it - but you can feel it.

Relationships are a difficult thing; at least I know I have a hard time with them.  They always start out with a gitty feeling, and end with a pit in the stomach.  But between the gitty puppy love, and the pit full hurt of a breakup, is something beautiful.  The idea that two people can go through so many things together, and grow and learn so much, is something worth experiencing. 

While I haven't reached a point where I am ready to commit my time and life to another person, I can say that I have had the joys of experiencing relationships; and I have to admit, they have all taught me so much.  One thing I have learned is that you can't help who you care about, your heart just pulls you and places you there. When you find someone that is worth going through the ups and the downs with, stick to them.  And if it comes time to let go, hold on to all the things the relationship taught you. 

I have been lucky enough to go through some wild, crazy, fun, and yet extremely hard times in my most recent relationship.  One thing I keep telling myself over and over is "its all worth it, when I look into his eyes, know that we have each other, and know that no matter what we are both growing... its all worth it, and I am learning." I don't know where I will be or who I will be with in the future, but I know where I am now, is exactly where I need and want to be.

This morning I was in a sap-romance/bluesy mood and I came across a great song- Natalie Cole "I love him so much."  This song is gorgeous, heart felt, and powerful.  And even if you can't relate it to a significant other (shout out to all my single ladies!!)  there are still people in each of our lives that we love, unconditionally, and that's something worth singing about :)  


Natalie Cole - Love Him So Much

Today we broke up, tomorrow we'll make u
And again he'll hang up on me
But you see I know he'll never hurt me
I know he'll never desert me
And so I just say that's my man anyway
Tonight we'll love plenty, tomorrow maybe not any
But I'm sure he'll come through just in time
And to me he's more than just a man
He's my life so I understand why things has got to be his way
And I love him so much, so much 'til it hurts me
Yes, I do, so much, so much 'til it hurts me
He makes me cry when I wanna laugh sometimes
His moods, they keep changing all the time
But I know just where his head is when it's not laying on top of mine
His world is not so different and you may not believe
But I'm sure you'd understand him if you were me
And that's why this world can't look and frown
But I'll never let him down
That is my man and he means the world to me
And I love him so much, so much 'til it hurts me
Yes, I love him so much, so much 'til it hurts me
Oh (so much, so much 'til it hurts me)
I love him so (so much, so much 'til it hurts me) much
So much, so much--