I noticed the chaos of life a couple weeks back when my mom and my sister were in a car accident. We were driving to my grandma's house for Easter brunch, my sister and mom in the mini cooper and me directly behind them in my cube. What was suppose to be a nice Easter day with the family turned into a scary, painful, and long day with firefighter, policemen, nurses, and doctors. My sister was making a left hand turn when a Yukon came at 40 mph and smashed directly into the front passenger side of the mini cooper.
Mini cooper vs. Yukon... you do the math... not a pretty equation.
It was the most horrible thing I have ever had to witness. I sat there and it was as if time had stopped. The sound of screeching tires, the sound of glass breaking, metal bending, and my little sister screaming. I don't think I will ever forget the sound. But it wasn't just the sound that was bad, it was the sight. Airbags exploded, my sisters face slamming against them while glass went everywhere, and my mom no where to be seen ,while she was getting plowed into by a motorized vehicle three or four times the size of the one they sat in.
The sound. The sight.
The nightmares that are still finding me in my rest.
Everyone made it out alive, and luckily with no broken bones. My sister walked away with acute whiplash, while my mom wasn't as lucky. Bruises, burns, and damaged muscles is what my mom was left with. Easter Sunday was a scary day, but two weeks later and my sister is back in school, my mom is getting around mostly on her own, and life is getting closer to normal for the Barness family.
While my mom continues to heal, and my sister enjoys the new car smell of her Mercedes c230, I am back to the Seattle life. Work is slowing down which means all my documentation, policies, and procedures are getting refreshed; and let's be honest NO ONE enjoys reading hundreds of pages of rules and regulations then going through and editing and updating. Yes, work has slowed down but the busy work never ends.
With the stress of the car crash and coming back to work I also have been dealing with missing the person I care most about. I would never trade anything in the world for the man I have in my life. There are days where I would do anything just to be close to him. Constantly missing him, only getting to hear from him via phone or text, and waiting for the next time I can drive home to see him can be extremely hard. He is the person I turn to when I am upset, he is the person I turn to when I need to vent, and he is the person who can make me smile no matter what is going on in the day. To not have him by my side can be so hard.
But life isn't all bad and stressful. There's good things happening too. The weather has been great and Tator and I have been getting to go out and enjoy it a lot more. I have been riding the bus (well... at least when I don't miss it!), we have been walking for hours each day, and we have even spent time checking out new hiking trails and parks. I love the outdoors, so getting out with my little guy has been a blast!
Another great thing is Alexia is moving here soon. One more week and I will have a good friend in the Seattle area with me. I can't wait! This place gets so lonely, and to have one of my sisters here with me is going to be such a blessing. Hopefully I can help her get adjusted to her new home, while she can help me not feel so alone. That girl and I have so much in common and I'm sure will take over the town together once she gets here.
So.... I said it once... I will say it again... LIFE HAPPENS.
There's good, there's bad, and right now I got a little bit of it all happening in my life.
Either way, I am sooo thankful for this life.
SO thankful.
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