Hello Mind, Please don't rush me...

Lately I have been forced to be patient.  I have this itch to get things going. I want to start school, I want to see changes, I want Trever to move in, I want to start making steps forward, and I want to get the ball rolling on chasing my dreams! And I want it all NOW!!!!!

I have had such a passion put in me for this massage schooling and naturopathy medicine that I just want to get going already! Why can't the money already be here? Why can't Trever's car already be fixed so he can move?  Why can't my schedule line up how I need it so I can start my classes?  UGH!!! I FEEL SO ANXIOUS ABOUT EVERYTHING!!

Today is a beautiful day.  The sun is shinning, and well... the wind is blowing, but it is beautiful none the less.  I am trying to take in the day's beauty with a relaxed state of mind but I keep noticing myself wanting to make to-do list's, wanting to send in my applications for schooling, and wanting to just drive back to Tri-Cities and pick up Trever and bring him back home with me! haha I know... I know... that's not a relaxed mind at all...

I need to stop trying to push so many to-do's into my day and start trying to just enjoy the day.  This feeling of excitement/anxiety/eagerness is just driving me wild!  Hopefully I can take a deep breath and stop rushing... I think I am going to need the help of Jesus to slow me down though! :)  

I pray today I can relax, and slow down.  I pray I can stop trying to plow ahead and instead enjoy where I am at.  I don't know where this feeling of needing to hurry and make the changes is coming from, but I pray that God will take the anxiety away and will relax me from the inside out.  It's good to have the motivation to continue to grow and make change, but the hard part is trying to learn not to rush the change.

I guess patience really is a virtue...